Marie,
Welcome to the forum. Hope the weather did no harm, god bless those with losses.
I will wager a box of Newtons that if you ride around the older neighborhoods and the smaller farms you will find the trees. Once you spot one from the road you will be amazed how your eye will develop to seeing them. Once you see them, you will want cuttings, and you will want to know what they are, and you will talk lovingly to your successes, and curse your failures. You will bore your friends with the same type stories of a new grandchild.
You are now possessed/ill with Ficus Addictus (I invented the term and made the tee shirt) and these symptoms will prevail. Fear not, accept your fate, you are among friends.