Jo-Ann....
Very perceptive.
I knew at a very early age that I was a mental-case. My school years, and my teen years, especially, just proved what I already knew. Others knew it too. I thought that as I aged and gained some wisdom...some, insight into what life was all about...it would change my warped mentality....but, no dice. I'm still sick!
If there was a "rubber-room" for fig growers....I would be renting a three bedroom duplex, with a river view!
Frank